insomnia

Insomnia whilst pregnant and nursing a 17 month old is no joke. It sucks and makes for one tired and CRANKY mama. That is all. I am too tired to write anything else.

It's going to take me a while.

So, I got out of bed at 8:30 today! woo. Henry slept 7:30- 7:30 and I went to bed at 10:30. I woke up like 100 times but I am so surprised with Henry!

Instead of lying around nursing all morning I stuck to my motivation resolution and got out of bed, made us porridge and went to visit a friend. My plan was to come home and have Henry nap while I made our pizza dough for dinner and then had a little rest myself.

Henry had other ideas. He REFUSED to nap. Even after an hour of nursing, rocking, patting and begging- the answer was still NO! Cue a bad mood for mama. I mean, this is my first day of getting out of bed at 8:30 and I slept like crap last night. I wanted a good hour to myself. I can't believe how tired I am and I am hoping that bodes well for a night of actual sleep?

I at least feel accomplished for sticking to my goal. I just wish I wasn't in such a bad mood with the little man. Only 3.5 hours until Daddy is home. Watch me count the minutes! 

New Years and some new thoughts

It's been a while since the last post. I had to go off my diet and I am still very sad about it. I am pregnant though and my cravings and morning sickness took precedence over any diet I was supposed to be following.

I am VERY happy to say that I am coming out of the other side of the first trimester and am feeling so well compared to the last eight or so weeks. As a result, I am hoping to be able to go back to some semblance of the diet I was on. I am LOVING starches though and I don't see that going anytime soon. I will try to cut back my bagel habit out because I am fully aware of the effect it is having on my skin and my energy.

I am in the middle of a really good book that is changing the way I think about eating. It is called The Slow Down Diet and it is written by Mark David. It's brilliant and I am looking forward to putting his eight metabolic enhancers into practise. It seems totally doable when pregnant which is more than I can say for any other diet I have thought about.

It's not really a diet so I think that's why it's resonating with me at the moment. It speaks to me because it basically says what I kind of already knew but in an organised and well thought out, scientific manner. It talks about breathing properly, slowing down when eating, eating during the day instead of at night and eating good quality foods. I knew all of that but I NEVER do it. Plus, he makes it sound so good and so important that I feel compelled to do it.

Another exciting development in my life is that I have given up facebook- COLD TURKEY. My addiction was ridiculous. I was spending up to 10 hours a day on there. WHAT?? When I think of what I could accomplish during that time, it makes me sick. Even if I spent that time reading a book or blogging, it's better than mindlessly refreshing the page looking to see who hates Mondays or is mad that it's snowing. I'll miss sharing updates about Henry but if I get off of facebook, I might actually have something to update.

I am really hoping to find my energy and motivation. It has been gone for so long and it's not fair to Henry. Especially if I am going to be adding another lovely baby to the family. I need to get my s**t together! So I will blog my progress so if anyone cares can read it and you can cheer me on :)

I wish everyone a happy new year and I hope that this year will be a wonderful one for all of us!

SHINGLES?!?! WTF?!?!

Ah, I have shingles! Awful. They suck and I only have them mildly BUT they are on my eye.

I am pretty sure that it's because of the detox. There is no other reason for it. SO I am upping my veggies even more with red peppers, garlic and parsely in my salad to boost the immune system.

I am also using some homeopathic remedies and putting breast milk in my eye. It seems to be working. I am trying really hard not to use any anti viral medications because that's the very stuff I am detoxing from. Those and the anti biotics.

So I will let you know how I get on. So far, so good. I am getting some well deserved rest tonight and Daddy is on Henry duty for middle of the night feeds. I am hoping the detox is nearly over so my immune system bolsters itself and fights this horrible stuff off!! 

Day 5

ok- so the cravings are slightly less. I definitely need to up my veggie intake. All I have been eating is protein and more protein. I am starting to feel better. It's a weird feeling because I don't think I have ever felt well. I have always been sluggish and sleepy. Last night I slept well and today I feel clearer mentally. My stomach isn't bloated and I've lost 2.5 lbs in 5 days! I was at a meeting today where they had sausage rolls, quiches, chocolate cake and fruit juice and although I was starving, I wasn't tempted to cheat at all.

I know this diet is working already. I have never been able to say that before. I am excited to see what's going to happen next! :) 

Day 3.

UGH. I want want want sugar. I want it now!!! I can't stomach the idea of eating anything green so I have been living off of butternut squash, eggs, unsmoked bacon, lemon juice and water, quinoa, yeast free Rye bread and limited potatoes. I need to eat some green veg because I know I need the vitamins.

I would kill for a shot glass of fruit juice right now OR a chocolate chip! haha. I know that this will subside in a few days and my taste buds will actually change but right now it's hard.

My energy is kind of crap at the moment (even more crap than normal). I feel REALLY fuzzy headed and just want to go to bed right now (it's 8:15 p.m.). Thank goodness mum is here to help with Henry as it's the weekend because I just don't have it in me to entertain him at the moment.

The one good thing is that I find that I really think about food now before I eat it. Since there is nothing to eat that I am craving- I just don't eat. Normally after dinner I would eat a bowl of ice cream or have something chocolatey no matter how full I was. I do feel hungry all of the time but I think it's in my head.

Let's hope this clears in a few a days!!!! Thanks for the support :)

the herbalist and the diet.

So I went to the herbalist today and she confirmed what I thought; I have a candida issue. Basically it's when the yeast in your body mutates to its fungal form and creates havoc. Utter havoc.

I have been symptomatic for my whole life- as long as I can remember. It stems from eating a poor diet, taking antibiotics and being on birth control. The symptoms for me are: damaged thyroid, obesity, lethargy, exhaustion, thrush, fuzzy head, and a rampant skin condition. Fun.

So I went to see the herbalist today and she did some crazy Kinesthology stuff and basically found that I have a major candida issue but also have issues with dairy. The result: I am going to have to give up A LOT of food. I know I should focus on what I can eat and the positive results that will happen but I am still a little daunted by the list of foods that I simply can't eat- at least for a while.

Right now I am eating a takeaway pizza and drinking some elderflower cordial. It's my last supper if you will. As of tomorrow I will no longer be able to eat: wheat, dairy, seeds, nuts, fruit, SUGAR, alcohol, anything fermented, or anything with yeast.

WOW. So I will be eating meat, eggs, fish, vegetables, (no sweet potatoes!!! ahhhh), brown rice (in moderation), potatoes (in limited moderation), and quinoa.

Hopefully my energy levels should show up finally on this diet and obviously the weight will fall off. Those are the two motivators. I will update on my progress because I really want to keep track of how my body responds to this. Hopefully some of you will want to know as well :)

Right, off to bed!!